So that i don’t trip and fall =p
In the process to bring you guys Crossroads, I find myself standing at the crossroad many times during the preparation. It’s been a long journey and we are just a day away. I can’t wait. But at the same time, I am almost dying of fatigue. Pls keep me in your prayers k.
Dearest Limmy, pls take care while I am away k. =) Miss you lots and shall meet up with you after the camp. Will be good if you can come for the Omega nite. Gimme a buzz if you are, okay. Love you lots. *hugs*
Nothing expresses what I am feeling now better than the 3 songs below. So so apt!
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you, but I’m letting go
It may not last, but I don’t know
Just don’t know
If you don’t know,
Then you can’t care
And you show up
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest, babe
It hurts, but it may be the only way
A bed that’s warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I’m asleep
If you don’t know,
Then you can’t care
And you show up,
But you’re not there
But I’m waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest, babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn’t mean we’re not still falling,
Oh, I want so bad to pick you up
But you’re still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest, babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest, babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
“Better That We Break”
I never knew perfection til
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do?
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break…
A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane
The city look so nice from here
Pity I can’t see it clearly
While you’re standing there, it disappears
It disappears
It’s not right, not OK Say the word it should say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break
Saw you sitting all alone
You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right
Life these days is getting rough
They’ve knocked you down and beat you up
But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah
It’s not right, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, not OK
Say the words that you say
Maybe we’re better off this way?
I’m not fine, I’m in pain
It’s harder everyday
Maybe we’re better off this way?
It’s better that we break, baby
You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together
I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same
Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger
Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh
I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa
The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember
The way it feels to be alive
The day that he first met her
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same
You make me think of someone wonderful, but I can’t place her
I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh
I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right
So much to love
So much to learn
But I won’t be there to teach you, oh
I know I can be close
But I try my best to reach you
I’m so sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa, oh…
Yeah
In winning the argument, you lose everything else.
Simon and Garfunkel, Old Friends
Old friends,
Old friends
Sat on their park bench
Like bookends.
A newspaper blown through the grass
Falls on the round toes
Of the high shoes
Of the old friends.
Old friends,
Winter companions,
The old men
Lost in their overcoats,
Waiting for the sunset.
The sounds of the city,
Sifting through trees,
Settle like dust
On the shoulders
Of the old friends.
Can you imagine us
Years from today,
Sharing a park bench quietly?
How terribly strange
To be seventy.
Old friends,
Memory brushes the same years
Silently sharing the same fears
You came,
I erred,
We dichotomized.
What’s now?
To bath in the fountain of grace,
Be cleansed.
Au revoir.
Before today, life was in a pretty bad shape. But after the phonecall last night, I am feeling so much better. This has just confirmed my self-doubt-I have a very queer and warped thinking. G, B & L kept discouraging me from keeping in contact with him. Yet, we are still on good talking terms. And fortunately, he called. Oh c’mon, you know it. It’s hard alright. So I ain’t gonna mask it and pretend everything is okay. One thing I learn over the years is that we don’t have to be strong when we are not. God’s ever-loving hands are always there to embrace us when we are weak. I am taking it slow and easy alright. =)
Here’s a cool article on How To Break Up In Christian Perspective. Very seldom, if at all, you hear pastors preach on breaking up. Our “protective” CG leaders won’t even let us date that guy! Let’s get real, if you are in a similar situation and needed some advice, the article below might be helpful. =)
Ask the Lord for wisdom ( see James 1:5)
As a single Christian, praying for guidance and wisdom in the matter of a break up should be the very first course of action before making any dating decisions. You will be less likely to make a mistake if you do so.
Discuss the break up possibility with family and friends
God often leads through our parents’ dating advice, even if they are not Christians. Proverbs teaches that there is wisdom in using a multiplicity of counselors, so also discuss the possibility of a break up with trusted Christian friends. They may very well give you some much needed advice that helps you make a decision, or puts the relationship in a completely different light. Be sure to use these valuable resources.
Be honest, but speak the truth in love (Ephesians 4:15)
Never bash your dating partner personally, which will only hurt them even more and affect their self worth for quite some time. Do you really want to do that? Instead, tenderly explain why you feel God’s leading you to end the relationship. As you do this, remember the “Golden Rule”, and how it would feel if someone was breaking up with you.
While face to face conversation allows for far better closure, if that is not possible, a handwritten letter is the next best thing. A typed or emailed “Dear John” letter is seen as cold and mean.
Don’t delay the inevitable
Okay, you’ve prayed over the break up. You’ve discussed the issues with family, minister and friends. You know what you need to do. Delaying the obvious now will not only cause more pain for both of you, but will delay the healing process. By acting now, you give the Lord opportunity to begin leading both of you to the soulmates He has in mind.
Many delay break ups because they may be using the other person until “something better” comes along. Another reason for delayed break ups is that the other person is manipulating by putting the person who wants the break up on a “guilt trip” to remain in an unhealthy dating situation.
Make a clean break
Right, this is going to be hard, but you must be strong here because it is in the best interests of both to move forward. This means after the break up there should be no face to face meetings (if possible), no emails, telephone calls, letters, etc. While some couples may agree to remain friends, the data suggests that in over 90% of breakups, this fails miserably, and only lengthens the healing process.
Learn from the dating experience
Use this dating experience to learn from your mistakes, and build on the future. What has the Lord taught you about yourself? What has he taught you about what you need in a husband or a wife? If you’ve sexually sinned in this relationship, remember Jesus forgives and cleanses (1John 1:9). Finally, thank Him for the bright plans He has for you (Jer. 29:11).
My tears run down like razorblades and no, I’m not
the one to blame: it’s you or is it me? And all
the words we never say come out and now we are all
ashamed. And there is no sense In playing games,
when you done all you can do.
But now it’s over, it’s over. Why is it over? We
had the chance to make it. Now it’s over, It’s
over. It can’t be over. I wish that I could take
it back, but it’s over.
I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense
of wrong and right. I cry, I cry. I’m Shaking from
the pain that’s in my head. I just want to crawl
into my bed and throw away The life that I led.
But I won’t let it die. But I won’t let it die.
But it’s over, it’s over. Why is it over? We had
the chance to make it. Now it’s over, It’s over.
It can’t be over. I wish that I could take it back.
I’m falling apart, I’m falling apart. Don’t say
this wont last forever. You’re breaking My, you’re
breaking my heart. Don’t tell that we will never
be together. We could be over And over, we could be forever.
I’m falling apart, I’m falling apart. Don’t say
this wont last forever. You’re breaking My, you’re
breaking my heart. Don’t tell me that we will never
be together. We could be over And over, we could be forever.
It’s not over. It’s not over, it’s never over,
unless you let it take you, it’s not over, It’s
not over, it’s not over, unless you let it break you.
It’s not over.
It’s a shame that it had to be this way
It’s not enough to say I’m sorry
It’s not enough to say I’m sorry
Maybe I’m to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can’t breathe
Either way I can’t breathe
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
I’m alive but I’m losing all my drive
Cause everything we’ve been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
And every, everything isn’t only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye
Bye
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong
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