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Just Look Young

RP is really a nice place to study at. I can say with conviction that it didn’t waste taxpayers’ money! LOL anyhow, I always have fun dressing up in the morning whenever I go there to mug. Hmm I’ll be standing in front of my wardrobe, sifting out all the teenie clothes. All in the hope of trying to look like a teen once again! Hahaha! And I was victoriously successful today! Cos 3 boys actually fell prey to it!

Boy 1: Can you help us do a survey?

While I was doing the survey…

Boy 2 & 3 were scrutinizing my notes…

Boy 2: ohh you’re not from our school…

Me: (just smile) yeah, i’m not…

After I’m done with the survey, boy 1 and 2 continue asking random questions. Redundant. Totally uncalled for. Then comes the ultimatum, “ Can you leave down your contacts?”

In my mind I was thinking, “Excuse me, xiao di di, you know how old I am anot!!! Go back to your class la!!!” But of cos, I didn’t verbalise it. Did a subtle rejection instead. Hahahaha but that had me gloating for a while. So I don’t look that old after all! Yup just LOOK young eh :D

I’m not dead

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
There’s always cracks
Crack of sunlight
Crack in the mirror on your lips
It’s the moment of a sunset Friday
When our conversations twist
It’s the fifth day of ice on a new tattoo
But the ice should be on our heads
We only spun the web to catch ourselves
So we weren’t left for dead

And I was never looking for approval from anyone but you
And though this journey is over I’ll go back if you ask me to

I’m not dead just floating
Right between the ink of your tattoo
In the belly of the beast we turned into
I’m not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You’re my crack of sunlight

You can do the math a thousand ways but you can’t erase the facts
That others come and others go but you always come back
I’m a winter flower underground always thirsty for summer rain
And just like the change of seasons
I know you’ll be back again

I’m not dead just floating
Underneath the ink of my tattoo
I’ve tried to hide my scars from you
I’m not scared just changing
Right beyond the cigarette and the devilish smile
You’re my crack of sunlight oh

I’m not dead just yet
I’m not dead I’m just floating
Doesn’t matter where I’m going
I’ll find you
I’m not scared at all
Underneath the cuts and bruises
Finally gained what no one loses
I’ll find you
I will find you

I’m not dead just floating
I’m not scared just changing
You’re my crack of sunlight yeah

Never Say Never

I miss my colleagues, Laurel and Jassine. More specifically, I miss those spa party period where we slogged till 10pm in the office. Hmmm and also many of those dining and shopping time that we shared! People always lament that it’s a dog-eat-dog world out there. But thankfully, I’ve found really good friends in my workplace, people whom I can joke and play around with and also be myself. Something Laurel always tell me when I said I will never do this or I’ll do that, and that is “Never say never.” It’s very true! It shocks me to know how fast I was proven wrong. A few instances that happened recently brought what she said to memory. Like, how I always say I will never go and eat fattening food on my own accord. BUT, just last week, I had Mac, Long John and creamy pasta. I thought with much confidence that I will never touch durian ice cream, but I had a huge bowl yesterday afternoon. After conquering the meat buffet at Donna Carmela, I told myself once is enough, I will never try that anymore, but looks like I’m gonna take that back as well. So in short, never say never.

Though these are small issues, which I am glad they are, they still serve the same purpose of reminding me, pride comes before a fall. When we are too confident about certain stuff, it can subtly leads to pride. I don’t think I have to illustrate on how pride causes us to stumble. Just nice, Pastor was preaching on Numbers 5 and the same lesson surfaces. To put things into context, the women in that era were not of the same status as men. They were considered as the weaker and more dependent gender. Women also spent most of their time if not all, indoors or rather confined. As such, it brings us to think about why Moses in Numbers 5 mentioned the test for an unfaithful wife and not husband. Aren’t guys more prone to extramarital affair? So why test for the wives since they spent most of their time at home?

THE UNTHINKABLE CAN HAPPEN.

Just because all the leads tune us to think that women are less prone to extramarital affair shouldn’t make us any more confident that it will never happen. NEVER SAY NEVER. Cos it does! All in all, I’m exuberant to be disarmed of my pride in certain areas. Praise the Lord!

This is the start of another mugging week, till then, I shall learn to stay afloat amidst my notes.

May no gift be too small to give, too simple to receive, which is wrapped in thoughtfulness and tied with love.

Time Out

The best thing I ever did to myself during this period is to ask for a time out. Once again, I can breathe and function like a normal being.

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Relaxation

Come sit outside, this summer’s day
Relax amid the gleam
Formed by each vibrant sun-filled ray
Resting upon the stream
Breathe softly to embrace the calm
And peacefulness around
While thankful that within your palm
You hold God’s love, abound.


Come take a stroll, among the pines
Lining the dusty trail
See all that nature’s joy defines
In eye-catching detail
Smile for the birds, flying in pairs
And those who live alone
While knowing that nothing compares
To the glory you’ve been shown.


Come rest upon the fertile plain
Beneath the rainbow’s light
And know that every drop of rain
Reveals a blessed sight
For in the clearing, lies a place
Where relaxation thrives
Infused by God’s almighty grace
To dwell throughout our lives.


© 2006 – Jill Eisnaugle’s Poetry Collection

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